It’s been a while, Tumblr. And my life has sucked since then. To make a long story short, a friend of mine died, I got really sick, and I sank into a depression. The type of depression where you just don’t get out of bed because life sucks that much. I won’t say I’m “healed” or that the depression is over. I’m just able to deal with it a little bit better. But being absent for a good two months has showed me a lot: 1) Not everyone who claimed to care about me actually did. 2) My friends who patiently waited for me to reemerge are all beautiful souls whose friendship I don’t deserve. 3) Things for me are headed steadily downhill, and I have to live each moment to the best of my ability.
15 days until my birthday. Let’s pray God allows me to see this one.
Lawd, these last two months have been crazy. A possible update later?
I promise to flaunt my return when I come back.
I just wish no one prettier than me existed.
Every time I hear my boyfriend, or my roomates say “She’s so hot. That’s so hot” about some girl,
I start sobbing on the inside.
That’s normal, right?
I think self esteem is like Santa Claus.
You can believe in it all you want, but the truth is that it’s not real, and it never was.
*switch “boyfriend” to everyone I’m attracted to, and this is ridiculously accurate
I am stupid tired and my eyes hurt. Good night all
I can’t handle this right now.